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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 22:24:22 GMT

I've been informed that my dad has found my Xanga. What little posting I did will no longer commence now.

If you really want to get a hold of me to see how things are going, then you know how to get in touch.

I'll see most of you around Thanksgiving.

Ta.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 20:07:35 GMT

It's a girl.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 22:36:00 GMT

No one wants to hire a knocked-up nineteen year old. Go figure. In turn, I now feel like a complete freeloader. Sure, I help around the house, but I know it's not enough. Gramma B shouldn't have to take care of so many people.

I've been cooking more. Attempting to become more motherly. No one can top my french toast. No one! I made scrambled eggs today. Totally winged it, but they turned out great. Tomorrow, I will be cooking a lot in order to help Gramma B prepare all the food for Saturday's family reunion. She wants me to make deviled eggs. That should be a treat. Not only will I be able to show off my cooking on Saturday, but my ring and growing tummy as well. Woo.

I feel like I'm coming down with something. I'm constantly cold despite all the extra blood in my system and elevated metabolism. I'm very, very tired. And I just overall feel 'blah'.

The baby has potential to be a world-class kick boxer. Which, mind you, would be wonderful, if the baby wouldn't practice on my bladder. I pee SO much now. It has even woken me up in the middle of the night. I hate that!

I reeeeally need to change this layout. Maybe when I'm not feeling so bad. Bah.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 00:45:36 GMT

I'm tired of Xanga. Facebook is eh. I'm not touching MySpace.

There just is not any good place to do anything. Even Gaia is slowly being taken over by pre-teen emo kids and 52 year old predators.

You know what would be cool? If I could get a domain back up again. I'd let all my friends in on it and I'd help them make their own, fully personalized website where they can do whatever the hell they want. Post pictures? Of course. Comics too? Heck yes. Rant on and on about everything and nothing? I'm not sure I'll read it, but sure.

You dig what I'm shoveling? Of course you are! Because mainstream sites becoming so predictable and you want to break the mold.

Let's start brainstorming domain name ideas, and get this party started.

Oh, and I'm sure some of you want to know what's been going on. I've been back in KY for.. what.. 2 weeks now? Last Saturday John officially proposed to me. I might have pictures of the ring once I get it back from being resized. John, his friend Josh, and I have been doing a lot of work on our MMO. And I've been watching Outlaw Star. And it rocks. <3 Yay for my life.

You know things have completely changed when you mom buys you a second-hand breast pump.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 04:15:36 GMT

Well, I'll be leaving Kentucky Sunday morning. I'll be arriving in Michigan some time in the afternoon. Around 4, I think. Depending on how many times we'll have to stop for me to eat and pee.

I will be leaving Michigan on Saturday, August 11th. Call me some time between then, eh? (502) 608-1811

I had a great day with my mom and aunt. They arrived here around 3:30p. We all sat around and talked for a few hours. Then, to just kill time, they took me shopping at the mall. We stopped by that Motherhood store and got me two tops, two bottoms, two bras, and some really stretchy panties. It was funny, because there were these stuffed circles that you could strap to your belly to see if you could fit into clothes later in term. It was quite an experience.

After my aunt treated us to my favorite place in the food court, we came back and planned out how I was getting back. My mom will take me half way, and some combination of two people from down here will meet us there to take me back. No bus. Rejoice!

While I'm up there, my mom wants to throw me a little baby shower. Isn't that neat? That makes me feel so much better in terms of if my mom is excited about this baby or not. I can't wait to get a bunch of baby goodies.

Well, that's about it. I gotta send John a PM now ranting on and on about how much I love him for him to read after I leave. He is going to be so sad and lonely without me.. *sigh* I must remind myself to drown the bear he got me in his Axe spray before I leave..

See you all soon.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 22:44:48 GMT

I love how commercial Xanga is getting. It's funny, really. I wonder if all those companies really think it works.

It's just a matter of time now before I'll be back up in Michigan. My time frame now is three weeks because, apparently, I'm not worth getting if I don't stay for at least that long.

Unfortunately, the sadness of leaving is overshadowing the excitedness of seeing everyone again. John is going to be a complete mess without me. Gramma B said she'll miss me terribly and I'm sure the girls will too.

I fear I will never be rid of this feeling of being torn in two. Up there, I have my family, and all my friends. Down here, I have a family too, and the man I love. It's so difficult. And I hate it.

I hate it so much.

So much is going to change. So much already has.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 02:27:57 GMT

I was flipping through all my images in Photobucket and found a bunch of old headers I used for a layout I used to have for this site. I'm thinking I want to go back to that layout. So, expect to see a complete change as soon as I murder everyone at my bank for f-ing up my checking account again.

Nothing beats the first CD a band puts out. Linkin Park (omg, wtf happened to them?), Shinedown, Three Days Grace.. yeah.

I'm coming to visit, guys! Expect me to be in town around the 28th. I want to see all of you and give you UBER hugs!

Have you ever wished for a 'reset' button for life? I know the exact moment I would go back to and change one answer. I think a lot of things would have ended up differently. But then again, maybe this is what it was meant to be.

I can't help but miss the old days.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 16:02:02 GMT

I keep on having dreams about childbirth and what my baby will be. Each dream, the baby ends up being a boy. Yeah, it is what I want to have. Sculpt a little boy into a hockey player/uber-gamer of JUSTICE! He shall bring balance to the Force!

I want to visit before I get fat. Erin, you never sent me an e-mail with camping details! D:

John installed Guild Wars the other day. It's actually pretty unique. Fear my lvl 3 necromancer/monk!

Harhar.

Today is Papa B's birthday. I gotta go out and buy him Ghost Rider. First I need to bathe and find me a pair of clean underwear.. ;>>

My computer never fails to bone us right back in the ass whenever we fix something. I re-installed Windows XP, and now my computer doesn't recognize my modem. Blargh!

*poof*

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 06:56:16 GMT

Call me an asshole but I do love making fun of people. Everywhere I go. Good times, y'know?

Some people just make it too easy. Too-o easy. Like.. people who can't spell and people who spend their days in front of a computer jerking off to cyber sex with 14 year-olds. You people just make my day.

Being pregnant is just plain weird. I sleep for 12 hours, I'm always hungry.. urgh.

Gotta get me a swimsuit. John's littlest sister's birthday party is tomorrow. She'll kill me if I don't swim. She's only 9, but I know she could pull it off. You have no idea.

I had a weird dream about the kids I will have. It was weird. Yeah.. weird. Did I mention weird? No? It was weird.

I downloaded the entire Katamari Damacy soundtrack. That's the good stuff.

I can't think of anything else to put. So, the end.

Friday, June 29, 2007

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 15:58:48 GMT

Well, I guess it's time to let everyone else know.

Here it is:

I'm pregnant.

Shame me, guilt trip me, or congratulate me. It's nothing I haven't heard yet.